Loving Yourself ❤ The Past is Over – EP34

Candice Wu 0:00

This episode is about a very important aspect of loving yourself, loving your whole self. And catching yourself up to the present moment by closing the chapters of the past that are still left open. Knowing that the past is over, we explore shifting the energy in the body by letting the body catch up to what you know is already over and completing what’s incomplete, that you can feel like your beautiful free self.

Candice Wu 0:29

Hello and welcome. You’re listening to the Embody Podcast, a show about remembering and embodying your true nature, inner wisdom, Embodied Healing, and self-love.

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My name is Candice Wu, and I’m a holistic healing facilitator, intuitive coach, and artists sharing my personal journey of vulnerability, offering meditations and guided healing support, and having co-creative conversations with healers and wellness practitioners from all over the world.

Candice Wu 1:04

This episode is sponsored by the Ally with Death Visualization. It’s a do it yourself online experience that you can do anytime with a friend or by yourself. The energy of death is extremely powerful to ally with. It is the energy to end things or let things die that need to end in our lives, to make way for new creations, new energy, a freer and truer version of ourselves. Especially with this episode of embodying that the past is over, it can help you take inventory of what’s living inside of you, inside of your dynamics, your relationship to yourself, or your outer world that needs to end, release, let go or be recognized that is already over.

Candice Wu 1:47

If you’re feeling anxious, depressed, or feel the things are overwhelming or weighing on you, make some time to do this for yourself. It’s a great reset for the spirit and can reveal some very truthful aspects of yourself that are ready to release.

Candice Wu 2:05

Hey, everyone, I just want to give you a little update on me. For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been in Michigan, spending some time with family and friends and my partner, as well as doing all of the things that I just love to be doing here, which is taking ballet lessons and horseback riding.

Candice Wu 2:25

I haven’t really developed all the musculature that I need for a solid horseback riding. So I’m learning a lot every time. But what I found is that these activities, ballet, and horseback riding, in particular, have brought me so much joy that even if I’m feeling a little bit off in a certain day, just going for a lesson can rejuvenate me and help me feel clear about what’s next for myself, or just being in the moment.

Candice Wu 2:54

I’ve noticed around me and in myself, that people have been feeling very overwhelmed. It’s been an interesting and turbulent time for a lot of people. For myself, I’ve just taken a lot of time to focus on pleasure, to focus on taking pleasure in any moment that I can, even in moments that seem like they’re uncomfortable or that they wouldn’t typically be a pleasurable experience, I look for the pleasure. Look for the love in a situation or I look for something that’s nice to look at, or feel into a breath all by myself that I can, that doesn’t have to do with anything else around me.

Candice Wu 3:36

So I’m hoping that all of you are out there, finding your own ways to feel good and deal with any overwhelm if you’re experiencing that. In the next couple of weeks on my Facebook page, in the Embody Community, actually, it’s a special group on Facebook, I’ll be doing some meditations on overwhelm. How to release it, how to come back to grounding, how to feel in control, and navigating your life from a place of empowerment. So check that out if you’re interested, you can always find my page at CandiceWu.com. Now let’s jump into the episode.

Candice Wu 4:13

A couple of weeks ago, I did an episode on trauma from the science to soul and spirit. It covered what trauma is, how we look at it from a nervous system perspective, the completion of a fight or flight or frozen response, and also from the ancestral perspective, as well as past life, or any archetypal energies that are coming through in you. So, looking at the spiritual aspects of what you want to experience and what this brings to you, in your being, as well as the body aspect and why the body needs to complete something that has happened in the past that is incomplete. If this interests you and you haven’t listened to it, you can find the episode at CandiceWu.com/trauma.

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And today is an extension of that podcast. Because one of the ways that we complete trauma is by recognizing your safety in this moment, the safety of the fact that the past is over.

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One of the most important ways that I experienced loving myself and supporting others and doing the same is by helping them and myself be in the present moment, in the present right here and right now is where we can be available to receive and to take and to give. It’s the place where we can truly create from the most authentic, inner spark that we have. It’s where we can provide loving, it’s where we can create something that comes from a truly balanced and peaceful place. But if we’re acting from past parts of us that are just a reaction to something that happened or reaction to something that happened in our ancestry or something that’s been passed down or impressed upon us, then we’re not really coming from a true place of who we authentically are.

Candice Wu 6:11

I believe, loving yourself, one of the aspects of loving yourself is finding the best ways to nourish all the parts of your being, so that you can be your brilliant self. We each have an inner spark that is our full potential and with no shame, distortion, or playing it nice or being polite, we can be clear and vibrant, connected to the deepest source of our light.

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For me, I’ve had to clear out a lot of inner junk and garbage for my truth to come through for who I am, to really be at peace and come forward in life. It has required shifting out of Soul Karma, of who we believed we were in the past, who we have tied ourselves to in our identity, and to break open into feeling that were many more possibilities and willing to be many more things than we thought we were, and opening to spirit. The spirit that’s moving through me, that is me, and is energy being itself a creative force in motion.

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What I noticed can happen is that while I may know certain things, while I may think all these beautiful things, my body needs to catch up to speed. There’s a collection of knowing in our bodies, that knowing relates to all of the past experiences that have either shown us resource and openness and empowerment or shown us depression and stuckness and defeat, where we don’t feel just like ourselves, like our very deep and true selves.

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It is usually that things are incomplete from the past. It’s usually that there are situations in our personal history, our societal history, ancestry or past life that are still wanting some sort of completion, and they’re stuck energy there. Being in our true light, and our true self, loving ourselves for who we are and not all of the reactions and the incomplete things, requires us to cleanse all of those things to complete them, release any toxicity and dynamics that are not working for us anymore, the beliefs that are untrue, and the parts of us that are stuck in time to bring them forward into real time now.

Candice Wu 8:35

There’s a level of acceptance that we need. For example, I have this belief right now that’s really negative about myself. And I just accept that it’s here. So, that can bring awareness and that it eventually moves on its own. Or that I can do some healing work with it from a place of love, gentleness, and compassion, rather than from judgment, or lack of acceptance or resistance.

Candice Wu 9:04

But along with that acceptance, I think it’s really important to know that we don’t have to live exactly with what we experienced in our suffering for much longer. We can complete as much as we can, so that we are in our light, and we do feel like ourselves and at ease so that we can have more loving flow through us and be in our biggest joy. So with all this, then the body can recalibrate to the source, to the oneness, to the energy that is the truth of who we are, the essence of all things.

Candice Wu 9:39

And one thing that I’m noticing now, and you can see if you’re noticing this is that in our consciousness, in our awareness, now, as a society, it seems that there is more opening to different energies and tools that are available to us.

Candice Wu 9:55

Suddenly, one day, I feel much more powerful, and in a different place of myself that wasn’t available in the past. There are different ways to release and to clear or ground and be present with ourselves, there’s just more and more acceptance of all the ways that we can utilize different energies or tools to support ourselves.

Candice Wu 10:17

Some of those tools are ones that I introduced to you, or share with you or remind you of, and there are just so many that I don’t even know of that people are utilizing. And really, the lesson here for me is that every single kind of tool is something we can use at a different time in our lives. We want to accept all different tools for different needs and different levels of awareness, not rejecting that any one thing could be helpful for anyone. So just want to remind us that as we have this conversation.

Candice Wu 10:53

So how can we be more of our own inner spark and light? In this podcast, I’ll talk about catching up to present time, calibrating all the parts of you and your relations, your relationships to your inner self, and outer self. Also releasing and completing anything that seems to be in your personal, historical, tribal, or societal, ancestral or past life that is still unresolved today.

Candice Wu 11:20

We’ll also talk about letting parts of you know that things have ended, and how to draw those parts of you forward into present time. How to utilize the safety and resource that you have now to the parts of you that don’t know that, don’t know this kind of safety or the resources that you do have now.

Candice Wu 11:39

What inspired this podcast episode is a simple phrase, “the past is over.” And this phrase has helped me incredibly, but not all the time. When my body and nervous system were in a high state of overwhelm, where a lot of the traumatic experiences that happened in the past had just hit this threshold of deep suffering that I became aware of, the statement that the past is over, didn’t actually help me.

Candice Wu 12:09

It felt like “Yeah, but so I’m experiencing everything, and it’s not past. It’s here right now.” And so this may not help you right now. But, there may be parts of you that you find it does help or you might be in the place where the statement really resonates with you.

Candice Wu 12:28

So going back to the inspiration for this podcast, this phrase helped my younger self come forward into knowing that things are different now than they were in the past. I’ve had a lot of developmental trauma and belief sets that seem to be really alive in childhood where I felt like I was unlovable, I felt very alone, I felt really needing of certain things from my parents and from others that I didn’t get. And it’s been a lifetime of working through those things.

Candice Wu 13:03

So when I look towards my younger self, if my younger self, like my 5-year-old or 12-year-old self gets activated by some situation that seems to resemble the past, that seems to resemble a time where I felt like I didn’t belong, or that nobody loved me, or that I was nobody, then I can look towards this part of myself and give this part of me the comfort that it needs. And let this part of me know that the past is over, that the time of all of these hurt and need for the things that I needed for my parents, all that is over and that I can give myself, I can give my younger self, the things that I need now. The things that my younger self needed in the past, I can give them now. And to let my younger self know that the bad things, what she experienced as the bad things are over. And that we’re here now in a different time where we don’t need the same things that we needed. And we don’t need to rely on the same people for safety, for example, my parents.

Candice Wu 14:12

So this work of completing all the things in the past that are incomplete is like closing all those chapters that are still lingering. Anything that’s stuck in time that wanted something, anything that wanted something that didn’t get to happen, would be stuck in time. And then bringing all of those to completion, giving everything what they needed to move forward in life and grow. It’s like turning off the music and changing stations by completing your relationship with that station, giving closure to that radio station, and turning on a new one.

Candice Wu 14:48

So what do I mean by parts of us that are stuck in time? This is an example, my younger self of 12 years old really wanted to express anger towards many situations in my life. But at that time, at 12 years old, I didn’t have the support for that, I didn’t have a therapist or someone that I thought I could trust. It was overwhelming to feel that way, my body couldn’t regulate that feeling of anger. And if I showed anger in my family system, it seemed to be not just unacceptable, but I would get punished.

Candice Wu 15:22

And so now in my adult life, it’s still left in my nervous system. And there are things that can trigger my 12-year-old self, to want to just rage at people, especially at my parents. And so that part of me is a bit stuck in time and I’m still working on that part. The situations that happen now that are uncomfortable and out of sync with who you truly feel you are, are the debris that shows up to show you what’s left of your past, to show you which parts are stuck in time, or which parts of you want completion. And it’s an opportunity to see what else has been outdated and outgrown and needing to come into alignment with now.

Candice Wu 16:04

All of the incomplete situations that we have had that we hold, have energy, becomes a blockage, it becomes an area that we resist, and that we fight off, which kind of creates like a dam, if we’re thinking of like water, and a dam holding it back. When we get behind that dam and sense in with love and awareness, and more resource now more than we had in the past, or more than our ancestry had in the past, if we’re working with our lineage, then we can give ourselves the space to have what we need and that dam can open up and all of that life energy. That life force that was held back by that situation that wanted to move forward, can integrate with the rest of your being, and flow and feed all the parts of you that need energy, whether that’s your physical body that needs to digest food, and feel good in life, or the things that you’re wanting to do for yourself now that you don’t have the space for emotionally or physically because all of this energy is held back.

Candice Wu 17:12

We need all those parts of us that have been held back because all that energy is ours. And we need it to go forward, we’ve always needed it. And our soul wants us to complete that. So it keeps on bringing us towards situations that we have the opportunity to do something different. And if we can realize that the past is over, that we are a different person now, that we have a different situation now, then we can create something new.

Candice Wu 17:41

In order to utilize the past being over as helpful, we actually need to let it move through the entire body. So it’s not just a mental thought, like, “oh, the past is over. Okay, now, I’m fine.” Well, if we could do it that way, then we obviously would. We would love to take that route because it would just be so much easier. But a lot of times, what I find is that even though we know it in our minds, our body needs to catch up. So we need to feel that it’s over. And to take the time to feel through that, to feel the moment we knew that something ended or to feel how things are different from the past, and to let our body catch up and integrate the change.

Candice Wu 18:25

As you might have gotten from the podcast two weeks ago, about trauma, the body is not so evolved as the mind. The body has a reality of instinctual nature that we need to protect and survive. So it needs time and space to integrate things when our mind can go much faster. And isn’t that exactly what we want any way we want to feel good in our bodies in this life? We want to feel at ease and in control and empowered in the body. So when we recognize that the past is over, that’s something ended, we also might need to give that part of us that is perhaps stuck in time or feeling like it’s not over yet, we might need to give some sort of completion to that part of us.

Candice Wu 19:15

Well, we can experience some safety by recognizing that it’s over, that part of us may still want to do something that can really complete it to make it over.

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As in the past podcast episode about trauma, our nervous system doesn’t know it’s over until we complete a fight or flight or other response that’s needed. So that might be grieving, that might be yelling at somebody that you wanted to yell at in the past, that might be running in a situation that was dangerous, and it might be even more fantastical. Like, if a car hits you and you got an accident, you might have wanted to put your arms out to be able to push that car away so that it didn’t hit you. It doesn’t matter what it is, any sense that we have that we desired, anything we desired that didn’t get to happen is part of the completion.

Candice Wu 20:10

In other cases, completing a movement might be reaching out, when you needed someone in reaching out and having someone receive you or give back or be there. Or it might be to apologize and say, “I’m sorry for my part in this hurt.” It might be to grieve or to feel through the pain.

Candice Wu 20:33

So whatever energy is left over that didn’t get to be had whatever is already there wants to have the space to complete so that you can clear up that experience and it no longer wants anything. It’s done.

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If we’re talking about in our soul life or soul history, like past life, or just a sense of a past, before this life, or our ancestry, where terrible things may have happened to the people in our family, to our loved ones, to people we don’t even know, those experiences, if incomplete, will also get passed down to us. They demand to be felt.

Candice Wu 21:15

So all of that can be complete now, in reminding ourselves and reminding the energies that are in relationship to us that the past is over. And let’s feel the safety that we have now and then give any completion that’s needed there can be really transformative.

Candice Wu 21:33

One of the things you can ask yourself is, “Is this thing that happened actually over? Is the bad thing or the suffering that you experienced, actually over?”

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And if the answer is no, then you may need to get other support right now. You may need to act more quickly or do something to help yourself come to safety. Especially if this is regarding your emotional or physical or spiritual safety. If that experience is over, or you’re just not so sure, you can check and use the reality of your interactions now in your present life to see if something is complete or over.

Candice Wu 22:19

Sometimes we’re just walking around with the baggage of “Oh, no, somebody’s going to judge me if I say I like them. Or someone’s going to think that I’m not good enough if I share my gifts.”

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Well, what we can do with the present moment is check. Does it feel like a person you’re interacting with is actually judgmental towards you? Can you look them in the eyes and in their face and see what their experiences? Can you check or ask them, this may be a challenging thing to do, or growthful edge for you, but see in the reality what the case is.

Candice Wu 22:57

If you’re worried about something terrible happening, that someone might yell at you. Or if you’ve been in a natural disaster, and are still feeling unsettled about that, and depending on how long ago these things happened, you can look to your present life. Is it still a threat right now? Is it real right now? Or is it safe in your environment now? And what do you see? What evidence do you have that you are able to say, “Yes, I am safe right now.” or, “I am around people who care about me.”

Candice Wu 23:31

And if you’re not sure, if you’re actually in a safe position or you’re uncertain if something is still going on that would be unsafe for you, that’s where I recommend checking in with trusted people, with loved ones, with friends you trust, healers like me, coaches, therapists, let multiple people support you with that and reach out.

Candice Wu 23:56

I want to go a little deeper into our younger selves. And the things that happened in our childhood is that could be incomplete today, or could be bothering us today and still lingering. Beliefs that we have about ourselves that seem to be there all our lives, or an experience of our own being that seems to have been there for a long time, may be connected to an experience in childhood.

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The interesting thing about childhood is that we are extremely dependent. We need the support of loving caretakers, parents, or other people to support us, and to give us the regulation, co-regulation, the awareness, the support through all of the emotions and the tough things we experience, the growth that we’re having. And when we don’t receive that experience the way we specifically needed it, we can grow up experiencing that this is the way life is. This is the way the world is.

Candice Wu 24:55

And all the things I needed from my parents, I can’t get and I still want and need. And then we find ourselves as an adult still wanting and needing that from someone. And maybe we displace that to a partner that we have, or a lover that we apply the same needs too. And that can come out in many different subtle ways. Or maybe we expected a friend of ours to really be there anytime we want it. Because we didn’t have that from our parents.

Candice Wu 25:26

I found myself wanting a sort of permanency from a partner wanting them to be there forever. But I think the origins of that are from a parent that I have that seemed to come in and out of my life when I needed them to stay.

Candice Wu 25:43

When we say that the past is over, we don’t just mean that all of those things that were happening then are over. But we’re also referring to the fact that who we were, is different.

Candice Wu 25:57

As a child, we needed a dependency to keep us safe. We needed stability, love, nourishment, food, shelter from our parents, so we had this dependency on them that kept us alive. And now as adults, we don’t have that same dependency on our parents or caretakers. We can provide that for ourselves or get help from other places on our own or with the help of other people in our lives that can support us.

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So where we may have felt a reliance, a dependence on one or two sources in our lives before on our parents or caretakers, we have many more sources now that we can find to support us.

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In the specific case of my younger self, I have the resource to imagine my mother and father giving me what I needed. I have the flexibility in my mind and developed that overtime to do that. I have the resource to reach out to a coach, a healer or a friend to get some support from. I also have the resource to imagine my adult self giving my younger self, what she needs, exactly what she needs, and exactly the way she wants it.

Candice Wu 27:19

And I have the ability to tell my younger self that what happened in the past is over. And to give her a gentle update, a memo, a news flash about life now that things are different. And I can bring her forward into what her future would be, which is the present right now.

Candice Wu 27:39

So if this is resonating with you, you might look for places that you find that there are chapters on closed parts of you that are stuck in time that are wanting something that never got to habit. And perhaps parts of your ancestry that experienced really hard or unbearable things, where there was an imbalance in a certain way, maybe where a relationship was out of balance, or something really awful happened and it’s still something your family talks about today.

Candice Wu 28:11

Even if you have a sense that there’s something back there, you don’t need to know the details. That’s where a Family Constellations professional like myself or my colleagues, or anyone in the world that does that work, that’s where they can come into play and support you with that. Because we can open that up without knowing the information mentally, where the body can tell you even more, in this case, to Akashic records, and past life regression, or people who do Soul work might be an interesting way to get support for that as well.

Candice Wu 28:42

So as a continuation of the trauma work that we’ve been talking about, and also any growth or development in yourself, I am going to release three different healing experientials in this next week. All of it to address this idea that the past is over.

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The first one will be taking inventory on any aspects of yourself that feel like they’re stuck in time, any chapters of your life that want closing and completion so that you can feel free of them.

Candice Wu 29:13

The second one is to close a specific chapter that you find in your inventory. Perhaps it’s working with your younger self, or a piece of your inner world, and to bring some completion to that, so that you can leave that behind and bring this part of yourself, this energy of you to the present day life, where you have more resource and where you have all possibility.

Candice Wu 29:39

The third healing experiential will be completing something in a relationship that still seems to be open. So even if we think we’ve had closure in certain relationships, sometimes our soul or body wanted something else to happen or wanted to say something and didn’t get to. And will work with completing any of those things that you needed in the present moment, so that you can feel like your connection and energetic tie to this person is complete. And that can really free you up for new relationships or new connections with other things in your life that you want today.

Candice Wu 30:23

So we’re coming to the end of the podcast today. I hope you found it interesting and a nice extension to the trauma podcast that was two weeks ago. Check out the three experientials that are coming out for your healing and for your growth. And as always, feel free to reach out to me with any thoughts, questions, support, I love hearing from you. And I absolutely love doing healing work online with anyone in the world that’s listening.

Candice Wu 30:51

As we end today, I would love to invite you to check out my Patreon page at CandiceWu.com/patreon. If you’ve been touched, helped or supported in any way by any of these podcasts that I put out there, I would just love for your contribution to continue these podcasts and to offer topics that you’re interested in. You can feel free to give me that feedback as well on the Patreon page, and to give a contribution that can support to producing more of these podcasts.

Candice Wu 31:20

And before you go, I’d also like to invite you to the Embody Community. Here, you can get access to my bi-monthly newsletter, as well as other healing experientials, meditations, and offerings.

Candice Wu 31:31

And as we close today, I just want to send my well wishes for all of you to find more and more of your true self. To just love who you are exactly who you are, and all that you are deeply wanting to bring to this life, to feel in this life and to be.

Candice Wu 31:51

There’s a middle school student years ago that I just really appreciate it. And one of the things she said to me was, “I wish you all that you wish for.” And so today, I’ll leave you with that thought and sentiment that I wish you all that you wish for.

Candice Wu 32:08

Okay, see you next time on The Embody Podcast.

Introduction

You’re jumping and on a healing experience and self-inquiry of taking inventory on what’s stuck in time.

This is one of the healing experiences out of three that are connected with the episode on the Past is Over and Loving Yourself. You can find the full episode at CandiceWu.com/pastisover.

This self-inquiry is a guided experience that I will take you through to sense into if there are any areas of your personal history, your communal and societal history as well as your ancestry and past life — if that feels pertinent to you — that feel like they’re incomplete, there’s that they’re still tugging on you or there’s some sense of something hanging back there.

When we have something in our history that is incomplete, we might feel some body sensations still lingering.

We might feel emotions or even body movements that hold itself in our physicality, in our physiology, to show itself to be acknowledged and complete.

So, what I mean by what’s stuck in time is that when something is incomplete in our history, wherever that lies in our history, it is as if that aspect of ourselves is stuck, and it’s stuck in a past time, and it’s as if you’re not necessarily living in the reality of the present moment where you can receive, and create freely and easily, but a part of the past is still lingering into the now and a part of the nervous system.

The body and soul are acting as if that thing is still happening, that thing that happened back then is ongoing and not yet complete, and that experience is wanting us to find a new way to be, some resolution so that you come out of it differently.

Let’s Get Curious

So, this experience is meant to be a curious, open and compassionate experience of just looking back and sensing into where there may be aspects of you that are stuck in time or wanting to find some sort of acknowledgment and completion.

I would invite you to have a journal or a piece of paper and writing utensil, and for you to just turn on the part of you that doesn’t need to make any sense of it all, but is open and wondering and non-judgmental.

And as you have your journal or paper and writing utensils in a comfortable place where you can sit easily and feel good in your body. Just place the paper and writing utensil down and start to tune into yourself.

Opening the Body

Let your breath flow and just wash away the day so far.

Wash away any worries or thoughts, plans or todo lists. Feel free to close the eyes if you’d like to.

Just feel the air right around your body, and begin to feel the edges of your body.

Be aware all the way down to your belly and your back, and sense into your hips and your legs.

Be aware of the floor and earth all the way underneath you and the sky above, and if at any time you feel overwhelmed or would like a break.

Feel free to come out at your own pace and open the eyes, look around, pause the recording if you need to, and just let yourself feel the present moment.

If you’re ready to begin, anytime you feel like writing something down, feel free to open your eyes, jot down anything that comes to you.

If it’s more interesting for you to feel in and sense, and just recall in your own memory, feel free to do that as well.

As you tune more into the body right now, feel into any emotions that you’re noticing, any body sensations, anywhere you feel tense or like you’re holding, where you feel calm or open, neutral, anything at all.

We take it all in as information. And as I bring up different aspects of life, feel free to just notice if anything changes. Again, receiving anything as information.

You might notice images in your mind, thoughts, emotions or more body sensations. Now, notice your present-day life.

Sense the age that you are right now, just feel into this year at this age, and tune into the thoughts, feelings, sensations you have, and seeing into anything significant that’s happened this year, positive and negative.

Sometimes times what’s stuck in time is also a positive thing. Feel free to jot down anything that comes to you about anything this year that seems significant.

Traveling Back in Time

And now, travel back in time in your awareness and go to last year, the year of life before this year, and again, notice if there’s anything significant that’s happened, important defense, incidences, upsets, relationship changes, accidents, rewards, recognitions.

Go back now in time to each year of your life, and sense the same. It doesn’t matter if your mind remembers anything that happened.

It’s not about the exact time that things happened, but if you have a feeling or emotion, let’s say you scan up to age 25, and you feel some tightness in your shoulders, just make note of the age and what you sense in your journal or paper.

So, take your own time and just scan backward to each year of your life, and sense any information, your body, your heart or your mind tell you — and feel free to just jot down anything, even if it’s a color that shows up for some feeling sense or thought.

Let yourself go all the way back to your young life, take a little extra time at each of those ages and just land, holding the intention of that age as you just feel into your body.

Let your body remember. Let your body tell you if anything was significant that’s leftover.

Go all the way to being a young child, and even a baby.

If you need more time, I suggest pausing the recording right now, so that you can take your own time to go all the way back to the beginning of your life, and just jot down anything that you sense.

It might be incomplete, wanting attention or stuck or anything that seems activating as you sense into it, any age, any feeling sense.

Tuning into Your Ancestry

If you’re ready to move on to scanning into your ancestry, stay alongside me. Pick a couple of deep breaths, and just acknowledge and honor yourself for all that you’re doing in the moment to sense into anything that’s incomplete in yourself.

Be aware that not everything may show itself to you now, and that’s okay, and that if you do this exercise, again another day, you might receive different information, and you might even receive no information at any given time, and that might be information as well.

As you feel into yourself now, just notice where you’re seated, that is her hips. Let yourself reset to your body here and now, at the age you are now, the place in life right now.

And now, let’s take a little journey into your ancestry.

We’ll begin by imagining your parents and or any caretakers that were important to you.

Sense if there are any aspects of their relationship or their life that seems to be significant to you in terms of how they may experience themselves or each other.

If there have been any experiences that happened together or in their childhood or in the course of their lives, sense into if they’ve had any struggles, challenges, accidents, illnesses, trauma, war, emigration, death, loss of someone important, major transitions that were overwhelming.

Write down anything that comes to you in terms of thoughts, events, images, body sensations and emotions as you sense in.

Take note of anything inside that has changed, now that we’ve brought up your parents or important caregivers.

Going Back Farther

And now, if we add in your grandparents behind them, sense if the picture changes, and if new thoughts, images, emotions or sensations come to you now.

Again, it doesn’t need to make sense, your intuitive sense is exactly what we’re looking for, anything that you perceive.

Now, we open to your grandparents, and if there were any significant events, upsets, hardships, anything that was even a bit overwhelming, whether or not you knew them, you can write down any sense that you have.

Sense into their relationship with each other as well as with their children, your parents or caregivers.

Notice if they’ve had any issues with money, with different emotions, imbalances in their relationships, connections with the community, connections with church or religion, and spirituality, challenges they faced.

You might also sense into any aunts and uncles — anyone related in this family, add them into the picture and see if other emotions, thoughts or ideas come to you now.

Return to your breath and your body in between each thing that you write down.

Feel free now to go backwards to your great grandparents, whether you know them or not dead or alive.

Feel into anything that’s there.

If you’re noticing a change of something inside, again, just jotting that down, and scan farther back into your ancestry, to your great great grandparents, all the way back seven generations, if possible.

Do a quick scan and sense, anything that’s there in terms of emotions, an image, a feeling sense, the way that your body shapes itself as you feel into that part of your lineage. Take any notes that you have now, any information that you’ve gathered, just writing anything down.

Again, if you need more time, feel free to pause the recording here. If you’re ready to move forward into the past life, feel free to join in with me.

Journeying into Past Life

If you’re not sure about past life exploration or if you don’t believe in a past life, you can feel free to skip this part or just explore with some openness and see if anything happens for you.

As we shift gears here, just feel back into your breath into your body. You might open your eyes and just take a look around and sense your surroundings. Notice you’re here, right now, in the present moment.

And as you feel ready, feel free to close your eyes or look down — whatever’s more comfortable.

Take yourself to the beginning of your life. Imagine going even before that all the way to before you came into this life.

Today, is just a quick scan of past life, just noticing anything before this life, feeling into your life before this. Any feeling sense, thought or intuition about anything that’s happened in your past life that still seems to be open or wanting to be acknowledged today.

It might be an upsetting situation, trauma, a violation or violence of any sort a disconnection with a loved one, when imbalance with an important relationship or other extreme situations or maybe as you sense in, there’s just nothing at all.

Whatever you feel any thought that pops in your mind, just jot it down, and you can take a look later.

See if anything sticks, and let yourself be surprised and open, and feel free to take yourself back another life even before the one before this.

You might have some sort of felt sense inside — tension, tingling or aching. Whatever you feel inside, just write that down or take note.

If you’d like more time to go farther back on your own, feel free to pause and come back when you’re done, but for now, we’re just gonna leave it at that and bring yourself forward into time, back to this life, back to this moment.

And as you start feeling yourself in your body right here and now, be aware of your surroundings — the noises, senses, smells, what the space around you looks like, and imagine it in your mind even before you open your eyes.

When you feel ready to open your eyes, feel free to and just look around, and let yourself orient back to here and now.

Coming Back to the Present

Feel your breath. Feel free to touch your body here, let yourself have a feeling of the container of your body.

Tap on your skin or squeeze or give yourself a hug, whatever feels good to your body.

You may consider taking a little break before you look at what you’ve written, and as you receive what you’ve written, take it lightly and with a lot of gentleness, and curiosity, letting this be all information that you can use for your next healing, coaching or therapy session or just your own personal exploration and growth.

Or leave these as markers of what might be there, an idea of what’s in your inventory of what’s stuck in time.

As you tune even more to the present moment, feel free to give a little movement to your body that feels good.

Take some deep breaths and release your breath out, and before you go today, take your hands on your heart or take a moment to thank yourself for taking this inventory on what stuck in time, what wants completion or honoring in your life, in your ancestry, your past life.

Thank Yourself

Thank yourself for being open and willing to experience something different, something new.

You might scan your list when you get a chance, and notice if there’s one thing that you have been intrigued by or found interesting that you might focus on as you take your next steps.

I invite you to join me in the next healing exploration on completing a chapter of the past through the body.

So, we will take one of the things that you wrote down or some aspect of your life that you feel is not complete in your personal history or your past life, and we will close that chapter to clear that up and release it so that you can be even freer in your now so that you can have even more space to be in your inner brilliance and light.

Again, you can find the full podcast at CandiceWu.com/pastisover, and check out the next healing exploration.

See you next time.

This healing experiential is about completing a chapter of the past through embodied healing. It's part of a series of three healing experientials related to the full episode of Loving Yourself and the Past Being Over. You can find the full podcast at CandiceWu.com/pastisover. And now, let's jump in.

Hello, and welcome. You're listening to the Embody Podcast, a show about remembering and embodying your true nature, inner wisdom, embodied healing, and self-love.

My name is Candice Wu, and I'm a holistic healing facilitator, intuitive coach, and artist, sharing my personal journey of vulnerability, offering meditations and guided healing support, and having co-creative conversations with healers and wellness practitioners from all over the world.

This healing experiential is intended to support you in closing a chapter of the past, closing an incident or situation that's happened in the past that bothers you today or somehow affects your body, nervous system or heart, and clearing that so that you feel it's complete. Depending on how resource you feel in your own nervous system in your own body in terms of how well you can navigate your own emotions, I would suggest using an incident or a chapter of your life that feels mildly upsetting or challenging. If you feel more resourced in yourself, feel free to go for whatever feels right for you. At any time, if you feel overwhelmed, as I always say, just pause the recording and take some time to either do some self-touch to help your body feel grounded or look around and orient yourself to the present moment to safety.

If you completed the previous healing experiential with me on Self-Inquiry and Taking Inventory of What's Stuck in Time, you might have a full list of things that you might use today in terms of closing a chapter of the past. If you don't have anything, that's okay, we will tune into something today, but you also might consider doing the other healing experiential, first. It's called Taking Inventory on What's Stuck in Time. Now, let's jump in.

Take a moment to just peel off the layers of today's stress of anything that's already happened today. Take some deep breaths into your heart. Let your body open, feel into your belly, into your hips, your legs and feel the grandness and steadiness of earth supporting you. Whatever you're sitting on, get comfy as much as you'd like to and feel the support of what's underneath you. Feel free to close your eyes or look down, whatever helps you feel more in tune with yourself.

Now, let yourself tune into any part of your personal past or your past life that you feel is incomplete, upsetting or still challenging in your inner world today.

Invite the part of you that experienced this situation to come forward. So, if something happened when you were a young child, imagine yourself as a young child, and invite your young child forward, that you can see this part of you.

As you witness this part of yourself, notice if this part has any emotions, if they're experiencing anything at the moment. Let yourself sense and imagine using your intuition, using any perception you have, letting yourself be curious and open. We'll let our mental analyzing mind just go to the side for now, as we let the more imaginable, visual, sensing world come to the front.

Now, whatever situation you had in the past, notice the moment you realized that this situation was over. When was the moment you notice that this was over? Was there a helpful person? Is there a moment in time that it was clearly done with, that you are alive when you noticed? Or notice how you got through the situation. What we're doing is finding resource and finding the point of time in which the best bad thing or the rough or challenging situation was over, and as you feel into that moment and notice it, let your body attune to that, noticing that this is the moment you realized it was over or this is how you got through it. Notice what's happening inside your body, any sensations, any emotions, any movement your body desires as you notice the whole world of that moment or that experience where you noticed it was over or that something was good afterwards, a helpful person you got through it.

Take your time in feeling any pleasure or safety from recognizing that the situation had ended, that you were okay, that you are alive.

Now, if you feel ready, go back to the part of you that was in the rough situation or the chapter that you'd like to close, and as you sense in to this part of yourself, do so with complete loving, allowing an awareness.

Check in with this part of you that experienced this hard thing, and sense in to if there's anything your past self needs now, in order to feel okay, safe or to get through this situation.

Ask: what do you need? And listen without any filter, without any need for it to make sense, and whatever this part of you says, imagine it now. Imagine that you could give them whatever they need now. It's right for them, and feel through what you notice in your body, or in theirs. Let any emotions come through and pass. Stay with it if it's tolerable and manageable, and take any breaks that you need, just to give yourself a gentle easing into this.

You might check in again and see how they're doing, and if there's anything else that they need, perhaps they need to just scream and yell or they would like to do something with someone else, express how they're feeling, maybe they're ready to play or create. See what they need now.

Check in to see if they need any comfort or love from you, any affection or words that let them know that this situation is over. Let them know that this was in the past and that the past is over. Feel free to let them know how sorry you are that this happened. How they did not deserve this. You might let this part of you know that you're with them, and that they're not alone or acknowledge anything they want acknowledged. Acknowledge how they didn't get what they need in the past, but they can have it now.

You might give them space to express anything they want to or let you know their story, and if there's anything else they wish would have happened, listen and sense into that now.

If you have any picture in your mind of what they need or what they wished for, picture that image all the way through, picture that scene. Let yourself and this part of you take your time. The completion of this may not be completed all in one sitting and that's okay.

Now, give your past self or this part of you an update on how things are now, how things are different. You might let them know who's in your life now or how things are or what you're doing, whether you're an adult now, you have different relationships and situations. Remind them that the past is over.

Now, feel free to take your past self from the past and invite them into the present. You can even go retrieve them from the past, wherever they are, and if they're ready to, you can bring them forward into time into the present moment, into how your life looks right now, and show them around. Explain what's happening now and what life is like, and if they're not ready, just plant the seed and let them know that they're invited to come to the present whenever they're ready.

In whatever step you are in this process, feel free to take a little more time at your own pace, whether you are checking in with yourself in the past, letting them know that the past is over or giving them the space to express what their story is and how they're feeling or what they need or imagining for them what they need. Take your own time now with whatever part you're at, and I'll give you a little bit of quiet time to do so. And when you hear the music, you'll know that the recording is going to end but feel free to take even longer, and as you complete this, take some time to ground yourself in the present moment, looking around and orienting yourself to space and time.

So, here now, is some quiet time for you.

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You're tuning into a healing experiential today about releasing and closing a relationship that haunts you or has some sort of grip on you. This is one of three healing experientials connected with the podcast about Loving Yourself and the Past is Over, you can find the full podcast at CandiceWu.compastisover.

Hello, and welcome. You're listening to the Embody Podcast, a show about remembering and embodying your true nature, inner wisdom, embodied healing, and self-love.

My name is Candice Wu, and I'm a holistic healing facilitator, intuitive coach, and artist, sharing my personal journey of vulnerability, offering meditations and guided healing support, and having co-creative conversations with healers and wellness practitioners from all over the world.

Relationships are extremely important to us as social beings, and if you're anything like me, then you've had many relationships that were really tough, relationships that are friendships or intimate relationships, ones with teachers, parents, even role models that have been both positive and conflictual at different times. And then, there was the relationship that just seemed to go on forever inside of me, even though the reality of the situation in real life wasn't happening at all, and so, if you've been haunted by a relationship or it's just had a grip on you for so long, like me, you might find this healing experiential helpful.

Sometimes we think we've had closure and perhaps we did in real life or somehow mentally, we've decided that we're done with a relationship, ut what I find is the soul and the body think differently, they're living on a different logic. They don't quite think, it's more of a heart to heart connection that needs a gentle and loving acknowledgement, and honoring in order for it to shift. Sometimes, our mind has decided something and get our heart and soul isn't yet caught up.

In this experience, I will walk you through checking in with a relationship that is important to you or was important to you, and seeing if there's anything that your heart, soul or body needs to complete it, so that you really do feel free of it and open for new relationships now, open for the ones that you want to manifest in your life and want to attract in your life so that you can have the kind of loving relationship you want now, whether that's a friendship, intimate relationship, connection with colleagues, anything at all.

As you work with a relationship in this experience with me today, remind yourself with gentleness that it may take more than one time to experience through and complete something here. If it's a very significant relationship, it may take a long time or years or just many times of checking in and seeing what else is there. Sometimes, different relationships pop up at different times, and a different aspect is shown to us where it's incomplete or something wants to be acknowledged about it, perhaps grief or upset, anger, even joyfulness, even positive feelings that come from a relationship may want some integration later. We're not always present in the moment when we receive something to take it in all the way through the whole body and the energy, and so, our body wants us to integrate all of that, and may remind you of doing so later when you're ready, and there's space.

So, whatever relationship you want to work with today, I'm wishing you a freedom between you and that person, where you and that symbol or object. You can work with any relationship even though I've referred to ones that connect with human people. It might be a relationship with an animal, your house, your career, money, you can decide, but I'm going to describe it as a relationship with a person just to make it simpler for this recording.

Before we begin, make sure that you have enough time after this experience to just give yourself a break before you need to jump into something else or work or the next thing in your day. When working with relationships, it's just really good to give yourself all the space you can to integrate what happens. And now, let's jump in.

For this experience, I'd invite you to stand up. Let's first begin by letting the body move in any way it feels comfortable or anyway it desires to, just give your body full permission to do what it wants to. That might be standing still, weighing side decide or leaning, curling up, sitting, whatever feels right.

Let yourself tune into your breath and allow anything that's happening to continue to happen.

Feel your feet underneath you, your legs, your hips. Tune into any intention that you have around any relationship that you'd like to work with.

Now, open your awareness to the relationship that you'd like to give some attention to, perhaps it's a relationship you'd like to close, release or shift, and with whoever this relationship is, invite the image of this person in front of you. Imagine they're standing right there as you're standing here. And just as we invited your body to move in any way that felt right. Feel free to do so here as well as you hold the other person in your awareness, too. Notice if you want to move closer or farther to this person. Sense what your body wants here, may be different from what your mind is telling you or what you thought about. Just let your mind chatter, for the moment, wash away and feel into your heart, your body, your hips in what's happening inside.

Become aware of any sensation in your body, any place of holding or resistance, any place of love calmness, feeling neutral. Tune in very carefully and sense if your body is feeling guarded, cold, angry, warm, loving, reaching out. Allow yourself to follow that movement and emotion or sensation.

And as you see this person in your mind's eye, notice them. How do they look to you? Is there warmth coming from them? Is there coldness? There's some emotion or energy between the two of you, notice whatever there is to notice here.

Recognize that this is your perception and your intuitive sense we're working with. There's no need to worry about the details or what's really true or not, just sensing what's in your inner world here.

Now, sense if there's anything left unsaid or unresolved between the two of you. Say out loud anything to this person that you need to say, without any filter. Notice what happens inside in your own body as you say these things out loud. Notice what happens in your awareness of this person. If there's anything unresolved or desired here, invite yourself to picture that now. Feel any body sensations or emotions that come with this, and again, take any breaks that you need if things start to feel overwhelming or intense.

Notice if any of these words might feel true in the situation or needed. There is love here for I accept my responsibility for the hurt in this relationship, with a breakdown of this relationship, and I'll leave you with your responsibility for I agreed to this for a time, and I no longer agree or thank you. Thank you for all of the good moments and I take them with me or I wish you peace on your way. Say, whatever feels resonant for you or imagine the other person saying any of these words to you that you want.

If your emotions or your body felt activated by any of those words, they may be just the right ones or you may tweak them a little to fit your situation.

Invite yourself to imagine anything that you wish they would say, picture that happening. And when I say anything that you wish, it may not be that you wish it to happen in real life, but that some part of you wants to experience this, give yourself permission to feel it now.

Sense anything that's happening inside your body, arms, your legs, your belly, and in your heart. Notice your breathing. Notice any changes.

Follow yourself in what's happening inside. If there's anything else that you'd like to say to this person or you'd like to hear from them.

Now, is your chance to be completely honest, without any filter. Let this experience is just between you and yourself, and the energy of this person and your awareness.

If there's anything else that's needed, feel free to imagine, say or do it, now. Your body move with it, and as you feel complete or ready to conclude today, take a couple of steps back when you feel ready. A day with your body and just notice anything that's happening inside, and allow yourself to gradually move farther back or invite them to move further back in your awareness, feel any shift inside.

And as you feel ready, become aware of your surroundings and sense anything around you that seems pleasant to look at. Feel your feet and give your toes a little wiggle. Notice couple of breaths.

And as you conclude today, notice if anything has shifted for you, and take a moment to honor yourself for doing this deep work. Thank yourself for taking the time to give yourself the attention you need and want, to clear up a relationship that you're struggling with, and acknowledge anything that you experienced, anything at all, taking it all in as information.

And as we conclude here today, I'll leave you with a little bit of time, as usual, to integrate, rest, and be quiet and still with yourself, and you'll hear some music at the end, and then you'll know that this recording is over.

See you next time.