a{Live} now: Getting Schooled by Ancestry and Emotions — EP72

There are emotions that take some time to reveal what they are about and sometimes we still don’t know. In this episode, I talk about feeling schooled by overwhelming emotions — the big feeling of an emotion that I had no clue what it was about. Wondering if I could hold my own complexity as well as how to be in intense emotions and feel gracefully incompetent. Plus the stories of intergenerational and cultural trauma that revealed, the visceral pain I discovered in my ancestry and how I healed it… My response that honors the survival and life of the lineage.

A Little About a{Live} now

I’ve found that when I share what’s true in the moment, there is so much ALIVENESS and fullness in me.

That’s why I started the a{Live} now mini-series, which is within the Embody Podcast. This is the second episode and I intend to share what’s happening in my real life and in my inner world, what’s truly full and alive now.

What’s alive now in me has often been what’s filled the juicy stuff of life: themes, joys, or challenges that others may also be experiencing, a fear and other emotions that bring me to the edge of my fullest expression in the moment.

As you listen, I will also share snippets of how you can support your own heart and soul, know yourself, be your fullest, or heal and love yourself.

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Show Notes

  • 0:00 Intro
  • 1:02 Opening
  • 2:08 Mention of Existential Crisis Episode
  • 3:48 How I Feel When I Am Being Schooled by My Emotions
  • 6:22 We Are All Evolving — What I Recorded in the Past, Allowing for Being Different
  • 8:07 Where It All Began
  • 9:56 New Relationship Brings New Parts of Myself Alive
  • 11:02 Fear of Losing My Chineseness and Complexity
  • 12:29 What Our Family Systems Can Bring Us
  • 14:23 Can I Hold My Own Complexity?
  • 14:40 Can You Take Care of Me?
  • 17:26 Next Up: The Feeling of Being Left to Die
  • 18:58 My Response to My Great-Grand-Parents
  • 19:38 My Mother Told Me More of Our Story: The Woodworker and the Door That Saved Us
  • 22:03 My Honoring Response to My Ancestry in This Story
  • 22:47 Honoring the Ancestral Experience and Not Take It on as My Own
  • 23:56 Processing Other Ancestral Not Necessarily Connected Experiences
  • 25:41 Working Hard but Keeping the Grief Alive
  • 26:36 Giving the Pain to the Rightful Place and Sharing Appreciation
  • 28:40 Gratitude & Allowing the Space
  • 31:29 Placing Words in Context When We Think We’re Losing It
  • 32:56 Diving Deeper Into the Family Line
  • 33:55 Encouraging You to Take Your Own Words and Let Them Flow Into the Soul Space
  • 35:21 May 5th #NativeWomenRunning
  • 36:20 Some Practical Tips to Move Through
  • 37:48 Gratitude
  • 38:00 Quotes by Nayyirah Waheed
  • 39:45 Sponsored by You on Patreon
  • 40:16 Other Embody Podcast Episodes
  • 41:17 Updates in the Embody Newsletter
  • 41:46 Sending You All the Love

Intro Music by Nick Werber

Featured Photo by Teddy Kelley on Unsplash

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