From Emotional Numbness to Wholeness – EP24

This episode is about my personal story of moving from emotional numbness to wholeness, navigating and developing a range of emotions, my perspective on how emotional experience changes over time, and an integrative blend of practices that can help develop emotional capacity and resilience. In individual podcasts over the week, I will offer healing meditations that you can practice to develop your own emotional capacity.

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From Emotional Numbness to Wholeness

Meditation ❤ Resourcing Emotional Safety & Healing Trauma — EP24a

Meditation ❤ Building Emotional Capacity with Pendulation — EP24b

Meditation ❤ Installing the Emotional Switchboard — EP24c

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Show Notes

  • 00:00 Brief Overview of This Episode
  • 00:32 New Intro With Music!
  • 01:10 Thank You to Nick
  • 01:42 Sponsored by You via Patreon
  • 02:16 Update About My Travels
  • 05:18 Start of the Show : How Can I Have Such a Capacity for Emotions and Did I Always Have It?
  • 05:38 I Only Started Feeling 9 Years Ago
  • 05:57 Growing Up in a Chinese Family
  • 06:29 Being a Sensitive Child
  • 06:46 Rebelling in Middle School
  • 07:00 Bringing Emotions Home
  • 07:10 Elders in China
  • 07:43 No Idea How to Handle the Emotions Inside
  • 08:06 EMDR : What is It?
  • 09:19 How It Helped (Feeling in the Body / Naming Emotions)
  • 09:42 Small “t” Trauma : Experiencing Neglect, Abandonment, Emotional & Verbal Relational Abuse
  • 10:13 Visiting a Body Centered Therapist
  • 10:49 Faking My Way Through Life
  • 11:16 Developing My Range : I Could Experience Only 5 Emotions
  • 12:55 Why EMDR is Interesting
  • 13:56 Seeing Progress : Rating Emotions & Sensations
  • 14:56 Brainwave Vibration
  • 15:40 How Yoga Reflects the Same Practice
  • 16:37 This is Not Easy!
  • 17:20 How I Got From There to Where I Am Today
  • 18:23 Leap of Faith Into Grad School for Clinical Psychology
  • 19:04 Finding Family Constellations
  • 21:01 Somatic Experiencing; More Science Behind Emotions and Trauma
  • 22:05 Learning That Emotions Are Completely Helpful
  • 22:38 Mention Brené Brown
  • 22:41 We Can’t Numb Out “Negative” Feelings Without Numbing Out the Rest
  • 23:32 10 Years Ago : How Can I Get Rid of My Emotions?
  • 23:53 Now : Allying With Emotions
  • 24:51 Trauma : The Experience of Something Incomplete | The Gift of Trauma in My Life
  • 26:46 The Emotional Evolution Spectrum
  • 27:34 Stage 1: Repression & Protection
  • 28:40 Stage 2: Ability to Experience in My Body With a Safe Person
  • 30:51 Stage 3: feel/tolerate Some Challenging Emotions Alone
  • 32:23 Stage 4: Learning to Enjoy My Experiences, Emotions, and Feelings
  • 33:24 Stage 5: Beginning to Feeling Pleasure in Almost Every Single Emotion : I Am Not My Emotions
  • 34:39 Stage 6: Shifting to Easier Ways to Move Through
  • 35:57 Embodied Experience / Using Different Spiritual / Embodied Technologies to Shift
  • 36:53 Spiritual Bypass
  • 37:37 Resisting body/emotional Experience to Finding Wisdom in Them
  • 38:14 Now I Can’t Imagine to Live Without the Emotions
  • 38:30 Doing This Podcast Three Times / Resistance / Recognizing / Moving Through
  • 40:01 Your Takeaway
  • 40:14 Offerings: The Upcoming Three Meditations
  • 41:48 Outro

Featured Photo by Chris Spiegl

Your Support Means So Much!

If The Embody Podcast, my writing, or guided healing meditations have inspired you, helped, or spoken to you, it would mean the world to me if you would show your support through a small donation.

Each creation is lovingly made from my soul and takes anywhere from weeks to a few days to develop and produce. I gladly pay an editor who supports me in polishing and creating high quality content.

As little as $2 help nourish my podcast and other creations to continue to have life and cover costs.

You can also take a look at my offerings which can deepen your embodiment on your own journey. Proceeds from those offerings also help me in the creation of more resources and material.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I am so appreciative.

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